The hardest part is this one simple truth success is not achieved by my own effort. G-d is the source of my success. Period end of discussion.
My own self effort leads to my destruction. With this kind of thinking I am saying, “Hey G-d I don’t need you.”
This thinking leads to worship of self instead of G-d the one true existence who created the entire universe with ten utterances. G-d created me not the other way around. I am not a necessary existence. I can or cannot exist. G-d is the author of all creation not me.
It is all about G-d. Dying to self is very hard yet it is the key to get close to G-d and to experience a true and great relationship with my father.
This process of dying to self takes a long time.
G-d warned us through HIS servant and the prophet to all the prophets Moshe with these words “Moses then warned the Jewish people not to take the goodness that G‑d would bestow upon them for granted.
[Moses warned the Jewish people, “Take care lest] you say to yourself, ‘It is my own strength and the might of my hand that have accumulated this wealth for me.’” Deuteronomy 8:17
Children often surpass their parents in many ways, even though they inherited their talents and abilities from their parents. The reason that children can manifest capabilities their parents do not seem to possess is because these talents remained dormant in the parents and only became active in their children.
Similarly, G‑d calls the Jewish people His “children.” He has indeed left it up to us to bring the world to its completion, granting us a measure of power that He has relinquished. Thus, when we accomplish something that helps bring the world closer to its ultimate fulfillment, we might mistakenly ascribe this accomplishment to our own power.
Therefore, the Torah reminds us that just as children owe their superior powers to their parents, from whom they inherited them, so should we recall that we owe all our power to accomplish great things in this world exclusively to G‑d.1 Hitva’aduyot 5743, vol. 4, pp. 1857–1859.”
Thank G-d for my teacher and Pastor, Pastor Steve Gray for drumming this into my thick head.